ATLANTIC CITY, N.J. -- Stare at the monster long enough and you become the monster. Did
Nietzsche say that? And did he really have five consonants in a row in
the middle of his name?
Anyway, stare at the Miss America pageant long enough and you
become, well, not Miss America, surely ... But what would Nietzsche,
prophet of the superman, have made of this madness on the boardwalk,
this yearly pageant-rite of our old democracy's furious vulgarity, this
winnowing of young womanhood to find the highest possible lowest common
American female denominator?
Then again, who cares? It's certainly not a question that's apt to
be asked tonight of any of the 10 finalists, who are better prepared to
offer their opinions on world peace, the handicapped and the role of
women in "today's modern world," as it's called by pageant people.
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Lord knows, though -- the air at the 62nd Miss America pageant has
been full of strange questions all week.
Like: What about breast taping?
That is a question asked at a press conference with Mary Ann Mobley,
Miss America 1959, and her husband, talk show emcee Gary Collins. They
are cohosts of the Miss America pageant on TV, and right now they are
being asked about some contestants' practice of applying surgical tape
across the chest to bolster cleavage and directionality.
Clearly, with questions like this, things are getting out of hand.
So often, nowadays, they do.
Two years ago the press was probing the Firm Grip gunk that the
contestants (not girls or women) were spraying on their derrie`res (the
approved pageant word) to keep their swimsuits (never bathing suits)
from riding up as they strolled the runway in front of 15,000 ticket
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holders and 50 million television viewers.
And there was the Saran-Wrapping of thighs for spot reduction, the
hemorrhoid cream to tighten eye bags, the Vaseline inside the lips to
make it possible to smile for minutes on end.
Not to mention Vanessa Williams, Miss America 1984, having posed for
smutty pictures, or Bess Myerson, Miss America 1945, set to go on trial
in New York next week in a bribery scandal, and the Atlantic City
Press discovering that 37 contestants have been arrested for speeding
sometime in their lives, and The Philadelphia Inquirer pointing out that
although it's called a "scholarship pageant" some of the contestants
don't even know their grade-point averages.
Now breast taping.
Suddenly, Miss Mobley rises, a smidgen of a thing with a red sweater
slung over her shoulders and eyes so deep-set that the overhead
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fluorescent lighting turns them into black holes. She takes Step One of
emergency action in this kind of situation, which is to say she smiles,
a smile with a conspicuous public vastness reminiscent of the huge flags
you see flying over Cadillac dealerships.
Step Two: "I don't mean to denigrate your question," she says to the
reporter, "but that's an awfully cute beard you have."
She keeps on smiling, bravely helpless or humbly triumphant, or
maybe even triumphantly helpless.
Step Three: "I wish I had enough problem to worry about it," says
Mobley in an echo of the Great American Woman's Chest Obsession, an
anxiety that contestant after contestant will voice unasked ("Flat as a
board," said Miss Mississippi of herself in her high school years, after
winning a preliminary swimsuit competition, going away).
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Step Four: "With all due respect, I think we're discussing things
that are irrelevant. I mean, all of us, I've gotta tell you, I put on
makeup today, I probably should have put on more." Her Mississippi
accent thickens.
She puts the backs of her hands on her hips. She pleads for
understanding of the horrible dilemma of womanhood. "Whatever it takes,
ladies, for us to get out there and look good ..." And then pathos
verges on tragedy, a desperate puzzlement to her voice: "Men, don't
y'all like it? Don't y'all wear cologne?"
Well, scoff, oh ye cynics, ye marching feminists, ye climbers toward
an enclave free of the ironies of middle-class American femininity, but:
These 51 young women, ages 18 to 26, have figured out how to fit in
and stand out at the same time; to be famous and anonymous, noble and
common, virgins and dynamos, nuns of the religion that has millions of
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American high school students praying daily: "Dear God, let me be
normal."
As Pamela Eldred, Miss America 1970, once said: "I am representing
the typical girl, not someone who's outstanding at all."
"I never said 10 words in high school," says the current Miss
America, Michigan's Kaye Lani Rae Rafko.
"I never said 10 words in high school," says Miss Virginia,
Richmond's April Fleming, who adds: "It's hard to be a woman. You want
to be attractive to men, but to women, too. In school I was in the
in-group but not an attention getter, I was real conservative, I was
just a skinny little thing, no figure, nothing."
They have learned how never to set off the feminine group ego alarm
whose siren goes: "WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? WHO DOES SHE THINK ..."
They tend to come from the America of a million unwritten rules,
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surrounded, in the world at large, with a billion unknown ones.
Like everyone else, they have grown up feeling like fools, with feet
in mouth and egg on face, the existential horror of childhood. But
instead of blaming the rules for their misery, they have decided not
only to play by them but to win.
Though more men than women direct state pageants, and a man heads
the national pageant, the rules -- particularly the unwritten ones --
seem to be policed by women. Adult women are 52 percent of the TV
audience, compared with 29 percent for men; the rest are children.
Women form the bulk of the 300,000 volunteers nationwide who make this
pageant happen, and though they make up just half of the judging panels,
they're the ones that contestants worry about, particularly in the
swimsuit competition.
Miss Virginia says: "Men are, 'Ohh, she looks good, give her a 10.'
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Women say, 'That doesn't look quite right.' They see you covering your
flaws."
Somebody mentions to Kaye Lani Rae Rafko that the past seven Miss
Americas have all been swimsuit winners.
Flashing a little frown over eyes that cool to about 98.4 degrees,
Miss America says, "Kellye Cash won swimsuit?"
Women also make up the bulk of the pageant haters.
It was on the boardwalk here that the legend of the burning bras
began after a demonstration by feminists in the late 1960s, back when
the bras that Miss America types wore were a symbol of oppression and
the body hair they tweezed, shaved and depilated was a symbol of
liberation, as in the Ms. magazine article "Body Hair -- The Last
Frontier." The current issue of Ms. has an article about Michelle
Anderson, the Miss Santa Cruz who in the Miss California pageant reached
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into her evening gown and pulled out a banner saying "Pageants Hurt All
Women."
Feminists have installed a permanent flinch in pageant officials.
One day Leonard Horn, pageant chairman, compliments a Cable News Network
reporter on her eyes. She says it's a sexist remark. Horn takes her
seriously -- she's wearing pants and a Luftwaffe jacket, after all, and
he says, "Who's sexist? Somebody told me the other day I had beautiful
eyes."
"I'm kidding," says the reporter. "I'm kidding."
"We're very sensitive about that around here," Horn says.
In any case, feminism is fading, the bra ashes have been hauled
away, bluestockings pale to lavender and the pageant remains, defending
the swimsuit competition with preposterous claims that it demonstrates
fitness, that sort of thing. But it is still going strong. It is still a
rinky-dink nonprofit corporation with only 12 full-time employees. The
atmosphere is less that of some cultural juggernaut than of a Las Vegas
night at the Moose Lodge, and still Miss America glows like an
archetype, an anima figure in girlhood psyches.
Night after night, the crowd at the preliminary judging in
Convention Hall is shot full of girls who have been Little Misses,
Junior Misses, Miss Wallala County Teen, untold crownings in the Miss
America locals, the Miss USA system, the Miss Universe system, the Miss
Teens Encouraging Excellence Nationwide (T.E.E.N.) and so on in all the
minor leagues of pageantry.
There are girls as young as 13 who split the colors on their eye
shadow and mascara their lashes until they spread apart with frozen
suddenness like the smoke from fireworks shells; who wear utterly public
smiles and hair in twists, who sit there watching and never yawn or
crack their knuckles, not even during the baton acts or the acrobatic
dancing, all of it done in the spirit of small boys taking their
baseball gloves along to an Orioles game, and done too because they know
the rules.
Like the contestants, they aren't that great looking, on average.
Not knockouts. And it goes without saying that if they had any major
talent for singing or dancing or whatever it is they do, they wouldn't
be doing pageants. But they stand out. They fit in. Both at once. They
can't get enough of the monster.
"Just by being here I'm more motivated," says Samantha John Fetters,
20, of Fayetteville, N.C. She is wearing one of her two Barbara Barbara
dresses, along with pendant earrings, blond hair, eyes the color of
light blue bathroom tile with a light dusting of talcum powder on it.
She has wangled a press seat by the runway and she is staring up at
the tense sashays of the swimsuit contestants. She says: "Now that I'm
here, I see it can be done, see what I'm saying? I was Miss Fayetteville
and Miss Cumberland County High School. I won enough scholarship money
to put me through a year of private college, Methodist College in
Fayetteville. I couldn't have done it without it. It's a business, it's
just like a business.
"My father is a heavy-equipment mechanic. We're just a middle-class
family. I've had a job ever since 10th grade. I kind of envy the girls
whose parents have given them everything, you know what I'm saying? Like
the Steve Yearick competition gown I got, I worked two jobs to get it. I
wanted it, I got it. You want to hear something funny? I drive a 1977
Ford Granada that's worth about $700 but I've got a $3,000 gown hanging
in my closet."
There is so much to learn, nailing down that runway walk, which is
precisely the walk any woman would want to have if she had to walk
through the Port Authority bus terminal at 1:30 in the morning to be
greeted by a father she is delighted and relieved to see, but who just
might be drunk. It is devoid of sex, this walk, like almost everything
else about the contestants. As one astute pageant watcher once pointed
out, winners of ancient beauty contests would be given to the great
Khan or somebody as a prize.
Nowadays, Miss America gets the prizes, the $150,000 in scholarship
and speaking fees for a year.
But imagine, for a moment, how we'd reel with horror and fascination
if Gary Collins announced that immediately after traipsing down the
runway with the roses, Miss A was going to be delivered to the highest
roller of the day at the Atlantic City crap tables, or, yes,
helicoptered out to the yacht of Donald Trump himself.
N-O no! That is not the point of the pageant, and stop that
immediately!
Better instead to marvel at the variety of smiles that must be
mastered: the standard happy-surprise flaring of mouth and eyes (with
optional blown kiss) when you're pretending you see someone you know in
the crowd; the full-bore princess smile, one that makes you think less
of orthodontists than piano tuners, for proving that no amount of
wolf-whistling from the crowd will challenge your poise as you parade
around in your swimsuit; a stately pleasure smile created by dropping
the jaw and then baring the lower teeth (the current Miss America is
particularly good at this); a cool and medium smile for still
photographs, with face idling in a sort of neutral.
And, should it be necessary, there is the ultimate smile, should you
be named the winner -- the anguish-of-joy-and-astonishment finale smile,
beginning with gasp, supernova eyes and lifted eyebrows, then closed
eyes and the frown of humility with slight twist of jaw to the side in
preparation for the tears, then perhaps a lip compression followed by an
inverted smile with the corners of the mouth pointing down and eyebrows
tenting up toward each other (possibly accompanied by a placing of the
hands in a little steeple on either side of the nose), followed by a
suitably brief oval of ecstasy converting into a figure-eight that leads
to the obligatory sob.
These women will talk about almost anything personal, but is there
one who would admit to practicing this look in the mirror? Perhaps there
are some things better left secret.
But stare at the monster long enough ...